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2008.10.10(星期五,晴)带着能量上路
[FACE=Times New Roman]2008.10.10([/SIZE]星期五[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]晴[FACE=Times New Roman])[/FACE]带着能量上路[/FACE][FACE=Times New Roman] [/SIZE][/FACE]
[FACE=Times New Roman] “[/SIZE]十一假期[FACE=Times New Roman]”,[/FACE]儿子天天玩游戏[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]开始几天老公还能忍耐住[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]并和儿子也有说有笑[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]可到最后几天还是支撑不住了[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]就转为对我发炮大哄[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]我在告诫自己不要在意[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]依然做我所刚学又喜爱的十字绣[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]渐渐地[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]负面听得多了[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]能量不断内耗[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]我的心又开始下滑[FACE=Times New Roman]……[/FACE][/FACE] [/SIZE]
我静坐冥想[FACE=Times New Roman]:[/SIZE]倾听自己的思想[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]观看自己的行为.水韵说[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]每件事的发生都是有价值的[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]我不断寻思着[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]老公说我跑东走西的学习[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]原来是变得那么自私[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]不关注儿子[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]也不关注他[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]我由原来的生气[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]愤怒渐渐变成了我的委曲[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]我真想大喊[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]我不就是为了这个家吗[FACE=Times New Roman]?[/FACE]只因为你不爱学习[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]我改变不了你[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]我只能靠自己[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]先爱自己[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]然后才能影响你们[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]我在积累能量[FACE=Times New Roman]![/FACE]我在寻找智慧[FACE=Times New Roman]![/FACE]可我还是恐惧[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]无法表达自己内心的感受[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]因为我[FACE=Times New Roman]N[/FACE]次地遭到他的讽刺挖苦[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]我不能再受伤[FACE=Times New Roman].[/FACE][/FACE] [/SIZE]
平静中[FACE=Times New Roman],[/SIZE]我反观自己的确在老公看来[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]我是不关注他们[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]我内心的想法没有表达出来[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]他们是感觉不到的[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]我[FACE=Times New Roman]N[/FACE]次的受挫[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]就该有[FACE=Times New Roman]N[/FACE]次的勇气[FACE=Times New Roman]…..[/FACE][/FACE] 于是[FACE=Times New Roman],[/SIZE]我决定吸引能量[FACE=Times New Roman]……[/FACE][/FACE] [/SIZE]
首先和自己的好朋友们聊天[FACE=Times New Roman],[/SIZE]让她们给我发现问题[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]从而得知自己的言谈[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]行为还是存在潜意识的模式[FACE=Times New Roman].[/FACE][/FACE] 群里的飞雪告诉我[FACE=Times New Roman],[/SIZE]先赏识自己开始[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]我每天早晚对自己说[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]我是个阳光妈妈[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]我是个智慧妈妈[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]我是一个很棒的妈妈[FACE=Times New Roman]![/FACE]呵呵[FACE=Times New Roman].[/FACE][/FACE] 我又想到了[FACE=Times New Roman]QQ[/SIZE]群里的智慧妈妈们[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]第一次大胆地在[FACE=Times New Roman]UC[/FACE]里和流星雨聊天[FACE=Times New Roman],如何融进去?她说,比如你[/FACE]儿子爱玩游戏[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]为儿子玩得高兴而鼓掌[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]为儿子玩得有成就感而发自内心的欣赏[FACE=Times New Roman].[/FACE][/FACE] [/SIZE]
我又冒昧地找西南聊,和她聊了一个小时[FACE=Times New Roman],[/SIZE]她曾经走过的路有些与我相似.[/FACE]西南的这句话[FACE=Times New Roman],[/SIZE]对我感触特别深[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]她说我们首先爱自己[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]然后爱老公[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]最后[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]联在一起爱儿子[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]对呀[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]不就是妈妈笑了[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]爸爸也笑了[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]花儿就开了呀[FACE=Times New Roman].[/FACE][/FACE] [/SIZE]
我终于找到感觉[FACE=Times New Roman],[/SIZE]向老公发起练习[FACE=Times New Roman]”[/FACE]进攻[FACE=Times New Roman]”.[/FACE]晚上时机已到[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]于是我温柔地对老公说[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]老公[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]其实[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]我怎么大的年龄了[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]真的是我想学十字绣吗[FACE=Times New Roman]?[/FACE]那么费眼晴[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]那么费力[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]我何苦呢[FACE=Times New Roman]?[/FACE]是因为[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]我以前做得不够好[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]连最起码的针线活我都不会[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]现在[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]我重新学[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]是为了做一个好妻子[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]好妈妈[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]让自己静下来[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]做一个平和的妈妈而已[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]老公默不作声[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]我也立即停住[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]第一次不需要太多的语言[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]我只是找感觉而已[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]每天做到一点就足够矣[FACE=Times New Roman].[/FACE][/FACE] [/SIZE]
今天一早[FACE=Times New Roman],[/SIZE]想不到的事情发生了[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]他第一次整理了被子[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]我看到后[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]大声地叫[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]老公[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]我好感动哦[FACE=Times New Roman]![/FACE][/FACE] [/SIZE]
一股暧流在我心里升起[FACE=Times New Roman],[/SIZE]眼眶都红了[FACE=Times New Roman],[/FACE]那是喜悦的热泪[FACE=Times New Roman], [/FACE]于是放下手中的一切高兴地和老公一起去吃早餐[FACE=Times New Roman]. [/FACE]我又一次出现了花苞状态[FACE=Times New Roman].[/FACE][/FACE][FACE=Times New Roman] [/FACE][/SIZE] [/SIZE]
感谢宇宙对我们家的恩赐[FACE=Times New Roman]![/SIZE]感谢自己和老公的一起努力[FACE=Times New Roman]![/FACE]感谢朋友们[FACE=Times New Roman]![/FACE][/FACE][FACE=Times New Roman] [/FACE][/SIZE] |
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