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6月16日,清晨,外面的鸟鸣清清.
     抱歉,我昨天晚上又做错了.唉.还是控制不了自己.练琴还是要和儿子商量.晚饭后,我和儿子商量:"咱们今天晚上都做什么呀?"儿子说L:"去小花园,看电视,写作业,弹琴."我和他商量着先弹一会琴,再出去玩.回来八点左右再弹一会琴.可是他不同意,非要先去玩.唉~!我感觉特别失望.从外面回来,儿子练琴中玩琴的成份多,学习的成份少.基本上还是在玩学.开始我忍着不去看他练琴,听着就已经一肚子的火了.儿子玩够了叫我过去.指着一个曲子自我陶醉的演奏给我听.我也装做很欣赏的样子.弹完他就要不弹了说要吃西瓜.我说你:"还有几首新曲子你还没有练习过哪."儿子不耐烦的说吃完了再弹.哪好吧.我切好西瓜,四分之一的西瓜,儿子可着劲的一个接一个的吃着.最后,我想是他已经吃不下了,他说:"妈妈,这个给你吃吧."我还装做很高兴的样子谢谢他.并要求他先去洗手洗嘴再去弹一会琴.写到这里,想想自己也蛮残忍的.干嘛非逼他练琴.唉~!
     还是好,儿子后面的练习要比先前的练习好多了.无论是在注意力上还是在认真程度上,起码态度上是在学琴的.练完琴后,儿子还要写作业.默写拼音二遍.这个默写差不多写了半个多小时.我虽然在一边陪着.可是我又怕控制不了自己发火.他呀,一会削铅笔,一会摸橡皮.一会把笔头写折了.一会又削铅笔.一会又把二只铅笔插到一起说是金箍棒.我决定躺在他身边的小床上小睡一会,希望这样即可以达到陪他的目的.又能控制自己不去要求他.
     终于他写完了.页面还算干净.我已经睡的很有困意了.我叫儿子去涮牙洗脸.儿子让我给他讲故事.我自己去我的大床上一躺就又睡过去了(老公不在家,儿子都跟着我睡我们的大床).儿子涮完牙,拿着三本书来让我给他讲故事.你们想呀,我都迷糊了哪么长的时间了,正是最困最乏的时候,他非要我讲故事.开始时,我想怎么着也要讲一个,迷迷糊糊的睁不开眼的.字都没看清,大概的给儿子翻书讲了一个.我说:"儿子,妈妈太困了.你已经都认识字了,也会读拼音,你自己看吧?"儿子不愿意.非要我给他讲.我就心想:这孩子怎么这么不会照顾人哪,一点也不在意别人的感受.也或许是前面忍着的火和气在作祟.我没忍住,对他大声吼道:"等我病了快死了,你是不是也要让我给你讲故事呀."抱歉,说这么难听和话,因为昨天上午我去医院做彩超查体了.内脏上息肉呀,血管瘤呀,还有襄肿的问题虽然没有大的变化,不过都长了二三个毫米.医生还是建议做个CT仔细检查一下.可是我不想查的太清楚.也不想浪费这个钱.所以去年就没查,今年也不打算查.
     儿子在一旁55555伤心的哭起来.我猜想他一定是想不通:难道自己听个故事也不行吗?大概是这段时间教育的成果,儿子的泪水浇灭了我心中的火(以往儿子越哭,我就越生气.哭什么哭,我又没打你.我就是不给你讲了.怎么着,你哭吧).我缓和了一下语气对儿子说:"儿子,妈妈真的很困,我明天早上再给你讲好吗?"儿子哭着说:"5555555,不,我就想听故事.5555555"唉~!我又开始狠自己,干嘛给孩子发火,不就是讲两个故事吗?后来,我还是睁开眼睛给儿子完了哪二本书.儿子满意了睡着了.我却很久很久都没有睡着......

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